Waiting on my. . . BOAZ

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a young Christian lady who likes referring to herself as a DORK which simply means a Daughter Of the Risen King. With that being said, I am going to take a God girl approach on this aspect called L-O-V-E being that it's Valentines day and all [If I offend you,I'm sorry but this is ME]

If you know me on a personal level, then you'll know that I've been single for quite a while. Now it baffles me how EVERY TIME I hook up with my girlfriends and the boyfriend topic pops up,everyone looks at me and asks "soooo....still no boyfriend, I
mean it's been years now and STILL NO BOYFRIEND". Then I have to endure the awkward ,eyebrow raised facial expressions followed by me tweedling my thumbs and having to break the silence with "Man......I'm...I'm just not ready" . Now don't get me wrong, I applaud my fellow sistas that can get their groove back in the dating pool but that just isn't me. So allow me to set the record straight to my girls:


See, I'm a different kinda sista....

The old school type...

The one that told herself that the NEXT guy I date, I'm probably going to marry. See I never liked the process, it was either NOW OR NEVER, if I dated you, I wanted to see a future IN YOU, guess that's why when the fairy tale endings got blurred, I got hurt.

So I decided that I was going to stop dancing with guys and learn to DANCE WITH GOD.

I needed to not only TRUST that He was re-writing my love story but I needed to understand why He fearfully and wonderfully made me. See He calls me DIVINE in the first place and I needed to know WHY

And so the waiting began (Impatient as I am)

 I placed my worth in the hands of another human, 1 too many times, so why was I surprised that he dropped it, every time. Countless times He'd say "Do not awaken love before its time" but being the stubborn soul that I am,I couldn't wait. I mean my friends were dating the loves of their lives and here I was, the third wheel on the 'crew love'. See I took waiting as punishment, some sort of sign that was telling me that maybe cats and wine would be my partner for life.

But that wasn't the case...

I NEEDED TO LOVE ME.
I needed to love the parts that no one claps for, the tummy that jiggled when I laughed,the breathed sigh when I don't get my way or my hopeless lack of direction.It's those unscripted moments that will probably take the-heart-that's-meant-to-love-me's breath away.

I needed to love those slightly embarrassing traits while letting God mould me so I too can be that God-fearing Proverbs 31 woman that Ruth was to her Boaz.


And even if I don't end up with a Boaz, I needed to know WHO I AM and know that IT'S ENOUGH.

Thank the #2016 JAR!

Day 40 of 2016 and you are either easing into the year (yeah we know January was a 'trail month') or like some , still squabbling around trying to piece everything together so the year can 'properly' begin.

There is something about the beginning of the year that brings forth hope, a chance to close a chapter and begin a new one like the good old saying "new year,new me". However, somewhere along the year, the new chapter becomes bumpy,a little rocky and we tend to lose our way, resorting back to old habits.

Call me out on this but let's face it, resorting back to our comfort zone is always the easiest thing to do, be it in

work, a new venture and the ever so dreadful 'healthy lifestyle'. When things get a little too hard,gym becomes a drag or even when the "no's" become a little too familiar, we shrug our shoulders, throw in the towel and simply go back to the ways things used to be because " this year isn't my year so I'll try again next year". See the thing is we THINK we have time that's why it's so easy to say " I'll try again next year" but whether we like it or not,time is ticking so we can either ride this roller-coaster we call LIFE or wave on as life passes us by because comfortable as the comfort-zone is, NOTHING and I mean NOTHING GROWS THERE.
Now you ask, how does one stay positive when it all goes wrong or even when things go stagnant? Well it's simply:
                                      A GRATITUDE JAR!!!!

Upon my endless quote readings on social media, I happen to come across a quote about keeping a jar and filling it with little notes about the things that you are grateful for or even something that made you smile throughout the day.It does not have to be something grand, it can be something as simply as "got a smile from a stranger"

The point of the gratitude jar is to reinforce the spirit of thankfulness. Life has a way of knocking us upside the head sometimes allowing us to only see the negative in every situation, so much so that we tend to miss

the silver lining in the cloud. In the gratitude jar, everyday is seen as a new day to take a risk, better yourself but more so conquer it all.. The jar not only reinforces the spirit of thankfulness but also reminds us of the strength we possess given that if we could go through all that we went through and STILL remain standing strong then clearly we can push through and make it through yet another day.

The Secret said it best when the book mentioned that " we may not realize what our innermost thoughts are,but we can see what we have been

thinking on every subject by looking at what has manifested in our life.The good news is, what has been done can be undone .What has been created can be recreated." It is in the gratitude jar that we are able to alter our thoughts,see a blessing in every situation given that "You must become a magnet of whatever it is that you want, to bring it to you. Magnet comes first-manifestation is second"

Above all, the jar is simply a way of reminding yourself of life's little rewards even when the road gets a little bumpy along the way. So.....'start' the year with a jar and end it with a heart full of gratitude <3